new year new beginning??

Yea..it’s 2010 now!not even our country,whole earth will be ended in 2 years time that’s 2012? haha. din count down for xmas n new year as my loved one said that count down represents the meaning of the end of your life.so why count down? n fireworks means 一刹那的灿烂..do u agree with this?lolz. as long as we celebrated it together,but at de same place due to some inconveniences.zzz..

When I flipped through the newspaper these days, I feel so sympathy due to the dramatic increase in fatal accidents during the end of 2009 n early of 2010.From the history, the nation always records the highest number of fatalities during the festive seasons. The tragic thing is entire families or generations are lost in a single accident. Drunk driving, negligence or reckless driving n lethargy are all those factors that caused accidents. Why dun we pay concern for it?? Recently the case which the bus driver was not focusing on his long-journey driving due to lethargy really make me furious. The driver is not held the responsibilities in doing his job well. This nightmare ride has taken 10 lives away if I’m not mistaken especially the siblings which about heading back home to celebrate xmas!May the souls rest in peace...

Well, back to the topic. Year of 2010 makes me feel that I’m growing older n older. I locked the door and stock of myself in the mirror. I believe the two decades had treated me kindly. Yet, I have so many dis-satisfactions about myself. For years I had secretly wished that by some magic, I would wake up one day n find the one flawed feature corrected in my otherwise ‘perfect’ face. I know it’ll never happen=( except plastic surgery. lolz
It’s easy to make me laugh. I have heightened sense of humor that my friends call ‘riotous’. Life is too short to take ourselves seriously. While it’s easy to make me laugh, it’s also easy to make me cry. This is the part I hate myself the most- my easy empathy with those who seek my shoulders to cry on. Since new year new beginning, I have battled in vain to become a ‘colder’ person. There have been times when I looked in the mirror and seen only ugliness, imperfections and guilt! Yet, I like being me!
*have to readjust myself to live independently. The funny thing is, living independently teaches me to be even more dependent on a super dependable person. You and I know who I am talking about. :)

gotta do some reflection for last year.it's time do evaluate my resolution for this year!=) I know I'm not a big fan of resolutions. But I think, I would do a short list to sort of give my life a little path. (and yes, I have been walking aimlessly for the past 20 years of my life, gosh)

p/s: i really miss my old friends a lot.keep in touch yay.